Sometimes we just need to have some down time to help us reset and refocus.
That is what I have been doing for the last few weeks, reminding myself of the things that I need to do to keep myself mentally strong.
Reminding myself to be Mindful…
Why be mindful?
Mindfulness practices can help us to increase our ability to regulate emotions, decrease stress, anxiety and depression. It can also help us to focus our attention, as well as to observe our thoughts and feelings without judgment.
That is what I have to do, to observe my thoughts without judgement, to just let myself feel the pain, the anger, the sadness in order to heal myself.
May 2021 has been an extremely difficult time, I lost my two brothers within 12 days of each other to heart conditions and for the last few weeks I have been living in a fog, feeling lost and completely broken.
My brothers were very private people, so I will respect their privacy and the privacy of my extended family, but I wanted to share how this loss has impacted my mental wellbeing.
I am a very social person, I love being around people as that gives me energy, a sense of purpose, I am what you would call a “people person”. Lately though I have been struggling to just get off the couch. Catching up with friends has been challenging as I don’t really want to do small talk.
This dark side of me is so scary, I have been here before, and I just don’t want to go back there. But the honest truth is that depression never really goes away, you can manage your mental wellbeing, but there is always going to be triggers that can happen at anytime.
They don’t always have to be a life changing moment, it can just be a smell, a feeling, a reminder of a painful moment in your life that can trigger your mental wellbeing and have you once again doubt yourself, have that feeling of unworthiness that can send you down the path of anxiety or depression.
Luckily for me, I know the signs and even though I am struggling, I understand the importance of continuing to practice my mindfulness to remind myself of the incredible joys that I still have in my life. This is how I done it before and I am know that I can do it once again, along with the help of some incredible people in my life.
The truth is that we are all going to experience mental health challenges at some point in our lives. Death, sickness, loss of income or even a pandemic are life challenges that can effect our mental wellbeing.
Sadly I am experiencing a challenging life moment, but I have to remind myself that this is just a moment. Life will go on, my brothers would not want to be moping around for the rest of my life. My family needs me and I need to be here for them. But just for this moment, I need to be sad, I need to heal, I need to put myself first and take care of my own mental wellbeing.
A friend recently reminded me of the goal I set out to do for The Zen Zone.
To Make Your Mental Health Matter.
Mental Health is nothing to be ashamed of, we need to take care of our mental wellbeing just like we do with our physical wellbeing, and right now I am needing to take care of my mental health so that I can continue The Zen Zone journey to help and support others with their mental health.
I will be back and even more equiped with life experience to help others.
Thank you for taking the time to read.
Please know that even though I am taking a break from my programs, I am still here if anyone needs to reach out and chat .